im really sad that my freind that went on a diet lost a lot of weight already, she already has a flat stomach and its only been 2 weeks. i feel jealous. i feel jealous of my freind. how horrible can i get? and i feel ashamed, why cant i lose weight? why is that how hard i try, i cant ? i hate every part of me.
it baffles me when people say i became “wiser”. by the term wiser do you mean, depressive? negative? and able to point out between reality and whats not? throughout the time that i became “mature” or “wiser”, all I’ve been occupied with is the harsh reality of the world. if you call this term “wise” , then I want out.
I was much happier without it.
im scared of my own home. yet im also scared dealing with the people outside. I should just go away and take these feelings with me.
I’m so unsatisfied with life to the point as to why I’m questioning the importance of existence. we go to school, we work in order to get money. then what? we waste it, then go work again and its a repeated cycle. and then i question my own existence, what am i doing? i feel like everything is just passing me by, I’m so lost in to what i actually need to do. I feel like as if im just wasting my time. I just want this feeling to end. I don’t know anymore.
seriously no one talks to me it’s so depressing.
One of my favorite moments in Boys Over Flowers. As much as he wanted to act like a bad ass, he was just so clueless and liked JanDi so much. Oh, Gu JunPyo.
suddenly everyone else is so busy, having no time to spend with each other.
they are either working or doing summer school and I’m just here. It feels as if im being left behind while everyone else is going forward. what exactly am I doing? I feel so useless, growing up is hard.
that is not a lot in that plate. that is normal.
(Source: boks, via namtreewoohyun)
